||[Jul. 7th, 2004|11:28 am]
|||||Third Eye Blind - Motorcycle Driveby||]|
As I turned my head and looked back upon my past
I saw a future greater than I'd ever expected
The lights dim on the second act
We all take our bows
Standing open, candid and exposed
For all the world to see
We don't have the script
Writing as we go
Hoping to weave fairy tales instead of horror
Let improvisation carry us away
Today I've got that whole "I can take over the world" thing going. I'm ready for anything. I'm just not certain where to start. Chapters of my life are coming to an end and with new ones being written in record speed, I have moments of panic and moments of relief. I've got this instant gratification thing about my personality. When I see something I want, I want it now. When playing the guitar, if I can't make it sound right, I get frustrated. I've always stopped trying to draw, because I don't want to suffer through the "Wow, that looks like shit" part. I want it to look how it looks in my head RIGHT NOW.
I'm trying to overcome it. Really I am. When I got to Baton Rouge, I was a sorry sight. I knew kinda where I was going, just really had zero gumption to get up and make it happen. I suppose that's pretty normal for walking out on an 8 year relationship and one of your children. I suppose I couldn't expect it to all come together overnight. A few days ago, something clicked. I started to become slightly productive again. It's nice to have a household that promotes growth and supports me in all my insanity.
I had a job interview and I was really impressed with it. I guess "phone support" had me expecting a huge call center like AOL. But it's not. It's a teeny little office with about 10 techs. *panics*. It's kind of daunting really. Knowing they aren't trying to fill 30 seats. I got every indication that I had a damn good shot at it.
So, stay tuned for further updates in the Holly Realm. Ciao!