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[Jun. 14th, 2005|09:22 pm]
Sichernde_Seele
[mood |crushedcrushed]
[music |K.D. Lang - Hallelujah]

Last night I heard the hardest words
I'd ever had to swallow
I heard those words again today
I'm sure again tomorrow
They echo through the halls above
And crash through cavities held below
And I scream and cry "THE END, already!"
It's time to let it go
The logic was there
It had to be done
No matter the end result
I knew that going into this
Regardless of the hurt
Goodbye, my love
My one true love
I cannot fight so hard
I'm just so tired
There's no fight left
In this broken little bard

~Sichernde Seele~
June 2005
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From: magdollna
2005-06-15 02:26 am (UTC)
No No no.. your channeling me now... you have great kids and got a house of your own.. whats that sad lamment for?

mags
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2005-06-15 02:28 am (UTC)
I miss my husband. Ex-husband. Whatever. Whoever. I miss that guy. Unfortunately, mine wasn't enough of an ass to warrant hating him. So I'm stuck with the pain of "star-crossed lovers" syndrome. *sigh*
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From: magdollna
2005-06-15 02:37 am (UTC)
Oh, I understand. I remember loving my husband and I remember that short time when I think he loved me too. In my case he gave me what I needed to only have just that.. memories. I think God or what have you sent me Chumas as if I had to go through my shit alone I would have gone mad by now. I believe that you are a good person and I will not give you bullshit platitudes, as I hate those. I can say I believe you will be happy again, Your too good a person not to be.

Mags
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2005-06-15 02:47 am (UTC)
We've had 10 years. 3 kids. A lot of water under the bridge and a lot of love above it.

I was the one that left.

It had to be done. We were a sinking ship and I had to stop the sinking.

*sigh*

That just doesn't make it hurt any less.

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From: magdollna
2005-06-15 02:57 am (UTC)
Nope, it sure don't. I dodnt now if it makes you feel any better, But I am going send you good thoughts . I know being in pain its no fun :(

mags
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[User Picture]From: a_little_rain
2005-06-15 07:28 pm (UTC)
I *sort of* can identify... I was married 9 years, 2 kids and 2 step kids... however mine was an ass, and if it was a sinking ship, we are talking Titanic :D

But there were good times too, and even after all mine put me through, I do get verklemt for the good times we had.

One of the hardest things in the world to do is to let go of something that is not right for you. sigh.
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