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And here I am... [Mar. 25th, 2005|03:05 am]
Sichernde_Seele
[mood |giddygiddy]
[music |Brother Bear - Welcome]

I made it. I have survived.

After work, me and C2 went out for coffee. As I was out of smokes and hers were at work, we wandered over to Wal Mart. We were still there when we mentioned something about the "Old Fogey's Aisle"....and I said "Wait...I belong there now..officially". It was 12:08. She said what better place to be at the start of one's birthday and told me to pick out my present. It's the neatest little bar of soap with a coushy sponge right in the center of it. It smells good, too. Which is good since she has to sit near me on a regular basis.

Logan and C1 gave me a present yesterday. It was an extremely thoughtful gift. All of Carnivale Season 2 burned for me and a beautiful necklace that was made by a SAHM. And a flower hand picked by C1.

I got a midnight serenade voicemail on my cell phone.

And I get to look forward to a week with my 3 beautiful children in one of the most magical places on earth. Disney. I can't wait. I'm so excited.

At 8pm I got an early birthday present when one of my oldest friends, Marc, called to tell me that he and his wife Sara are the proud owners of one Emma Grace Bieker. 6lbs 15oz. YAY! Mom and baby are both healthy and I will drop in on them tomorrow before work.

What I am most thankful for on this big Three Oh is this...

.

I have finally pulled my life together. I initiated it, but there have been a lot of folks along the way that have both inspired and supported me. I have a lot of love in my life.

Some of you know me in person. Some of you only know my avatar or my writing, but have been influential just the same. Now, I may embarass some folks here...but it's my birthday...so I'll indulge myself.

Nate - It was 9 years ago this month you came into my life. There have been a lot of rocks on this path...but it's finally smoothed out and I think we're both turning out to be great parents to our kids and great friends to each other. Thank you for all the great things you've given.

Jules and Barb - You two have soft handed me, tough loved me and all out turned me loose to figure my own shit out. I'm thankful you were still there waiting when I got it together. I love you both and you are in my thoughts frequently.

Logan - It's been a long 11 years. Somehow, we end up forgiving and forgetting, but I remembered this time...that we *do* forgive and forget. And love each other all the same. I say we start scheduling a blow out every 3 years. That way, we can just see it coming and get it over with. But I love ya, man. It's people like you that remind me that I'm loved.

Not_Hothead - Hardly knowing me, you shared very precious parts of your life with me. I'm glad Baph found you. The world is richer for having you in it.

Jaxia - (I'll just use that since I don't know how you feel about the whole real names thing)...You were kinda there before, during and after a lot of stuff went down. Thanks for just being who you were and letting me be who I am.

Alvin - You've known the avatar and the person and accepted and loved them both. You've watched a lot of change take place and I thank you for being patient when it counted the most.

'SinaBean - You are radiant. Always. Even when you're worn out. You make me laugh and smile and cry all at the same time. And soon, you'll be my Hawaii contact. I'm soooo coming to visit.

Emi - What a long, strange trip it's been. I love you. You've been a mother, sister and gal-pal all at the same time. You are so thoughtful and I'll never forget the flowers....or the panties. *grin*

Nick - You know what you've done. You are one of the kindest people I have never met. I hope one day, I can change that and give you a REAL hug. In the meantime, I'll continue to value the not so trollish troll. You're a very special person.

Abe - You stole my hurricanes last year. This year could you share? I'm so glad to see good things happening in your life. You deserve it.

Michelle - We've never met, yet we share some of the most interesting conversations. Friendships are sometimes formed out of the oddest of circumstances.

Erin - We haven't ever spent much time together, yet if you called in the middle of the night, I'd be there. You are truly special and have a place in my heart. I don't think you knew that. So, now you know.

Tarot - We've never even interacted much online. I've always valued your opinions and thoughts and dreams. Hung on every word, actually. Then I found out you were a friend to J & B. It all made sense why I was drawn to you. Keep sharing your thoughts. Someone is reading.

Dahne - Over the years, you've been a joy to know. We've never really engaged in conversation, but you give me hope regularly for my kids.

a_little_rain - When I couldn't have felt more strange, alien and alone...there you were. Thank you for sharing with me. Words can't tell you what it meant for me and how it helped me.

MelE - The friendship and the pomegranate seeds. I'm still an addict. You're going to be a wonderful teacher. You have so much love to give. Don't ever change.

Kit/Kel - as a mother and an independent woman. I've always enjoyed the glimpses you give us and the wit with which you do so.

John V. - My first guild leader in EQ and someone who has continued to care long after the light of the saviors faded....You'll always be my favorite snooty high elf.

C2 - We've only recently started getting to know each other. You keep me laughing when the nights get long and I can never thank you enough for the CactusFish introduction. Now, can I have my lighter back? *grin*



Now, I've gotten all sorts of sappy and long-winded and it's horribly late. I just wanted to say, in simple terms, thank you. You all make it worth the good, the bad and the horribly twisted. Every last one of you has enriched my life in ways you may not have realized. I thank you for that.

Now, I'm going to go crawl my 30 year old ass into bed and get some sleep. I need to conserve my energy for Easter Egg hunts and a 6 foot rat named Mickey who is sure to keep me young.
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From: chumas
2005-03-25 11:39 am (UTC)
*chants* MILF MILF MILF MILF MILF....

haha Gawd, I'm wrong in the morning.
Seriously, I'd be very happy to share in my delightful Cat2-4 'canes but I'd like to have one Cat1 all to myself.
/huggles ya

You know women just get better looking with age, don't ya? You look radient. The confidence in your smile makes a whole world of difference. :)
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[User Picture]From: tarss
2005-03-25 12:38 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday!!! *hugs!!!*
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[User Picture]From: rimmie
2005-03-25 01:13 pm (UTC)
I hope you have a most wonderful and beautiful birthday. *smiles* Lets make a deal, you keep the pigtails for your oh so cute head and I will keep you hooked up with the seeds. *winks*
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[User Picture]From: yarha
2005-03-25 02:12 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday

Yarha, HB2Gnu
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2005-03-25 04:39 pm (UTC)
OH GOD. How could I forget TGY. *hugs*

It was 3am. Forgive me?

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[User Picture]From: yarha
2005-03-25 05:57 pm (UTC)
Awww, sure. ;) It's not like we've 'talked' much or anything.

Yarha, Cooling Down Post-Indian Lunch
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[User Picture]From: jaxia
2005-03-25 02:28 pm (UTC)
Happy Day!
I am so excited and happy for you! Your courage gives me hope. And, I'll continue to be here :)
Venessa (darkeyesdreamin) says Happy Birthday, too!
(As for my name, most people who've commented know who I am ;))
~Amy
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[User Picture]From: a_little_rain
2005-03-25 02:39 pm (UTC)
happy birthday! <<
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happy birthday! <<<hugs!!!>>>
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[User Picture]From: a_little_rain
2005-03-25 03:53 pm (UTC)
If I could fix it manually I would LOL... but she's halfway across the country though, so a cyber hug will have to do. So funny.
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From: yankeelass
2005-03-25 04:14 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, hon......what's it like? I don't have that long.
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[User Picture]From: pathfinder02
2005-03-25 05:34 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday Sichy!!!!
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From: _dahne_
2005-03-25 09:53 pm (UTC)
Aww, I give somebody hope for the future.

...wait, that's scary. =p

Happy birthday, Sichy! And what's a SAHM?
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2005-03-25 09:59 pm (UTC)
Stay at Home Mom.

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