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In the words of Queensryche.... [Nov. 14th, 2004|01:36 am]
Sichernde_Seele
[mood |surprisedsurprised]
[music |Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer]

"It's starting to hit me like a....two ton....heavy thing"....

A flash of....I don't know what the hell it was.

Yes I do. Something I don't recall feeling for a very long time.
Real, honest to god distrust. Just for a moment.

It brought a song to mind. Just parts of it, mind you.....but clear as a bell...

Push - Matchbox 20

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty
And I think my head is cavin' in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By a hand that's touched me
And I feel like something's gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry

She said I don't know why you would ever lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting
When I think that the truth is gonna hurt you
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
It's a little bit dirty
Well, don't just stand there sayin' nice things to me
Cause I've been cheated and I've been wronged
And you, you don't know me

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Hi, Holly...guess what? You *didn't* know if you'd ever been good enough. You know now. You were never untrusting. It was actually a symptom of your own need to be accepted. Dumbass....you just had to accept yourself. You washed your face. I haven't been cheated. I haven't been wronged. I cheated myself. And they don't know you. You didn't know yourself. How could they know you when you didn't know yourself?

Here I had gone a whole week without digging in my own brain. This was just a flash. A flashback from a bad drug trip, if you will. I'm sure they will lessen. Can't turn on a dime, you know....

Oh, hi guys...Yeah, I'm talking to myself. Don't mind me. Just a momentary lapse into the world of "What the fuck was that and where did it come from???"

You know, I've been going to bed by midnight. Maybe I really do turn into a pumpkin.

All that in an instant. Kinda wonky, isn't it? But, like a minor case of indigestion...it passed.

Time for bed.
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From: yankeelass
2004-11-14 04:15 am (UTC)

Cosmic?

I have been riding around listening to "Push" for like a week now.
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2004-11-14 07:07 am (UTC)

Re: Cosmic?

You frighten me....Really.

And you never call anymore! You don't write...you don't call....Waaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... :p

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