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A public entry! [Nov. 11th, 2004|08:12 am]
Sichernde_Seele
Going to make an attempt at giving you guys a real update of sorts.

First and foremost, I've been working a lot. And I do mean a LOT.

Aside from that, I've gotten a weight off my shoulders that's been a long time in coming. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not Captive anymore. I'm making a life. I'm working hard and doing what I can and being myself and that's all I can do. I can't roll over and make decisions based on fear of upsetting people anymore. This is not to say I'm just going to be a bitch, but I can't live in fear of other people's reactions for the rest of my life. It's no way to live and I'm glad it's over.

I have a ton of things on my plate right now. Not a one of them is bad. Getting some good training at work. It just involves being there from 7am to 10pm. The money is good, though!

Lots of travel. I haven't decided how I feel about this, yet. I mean, as fast as I've always seemed to move, I haven't determined yet if Life In The Fast Lane is quite my speed. LOL I'll let you guys know when I have survived a few more trips.

This week I had an "Understanding TCP/IP" class and next week on Tuesday and Wednesday I'll be in "Asynchronous Digital Subscriber Line" (ADSL).

Then I have a quick trip. I fly out on Friday. Back home on Sunday.

There's a high possibility that I'm going to miss my company party. I won't have confirmation until Friday morning, though.

The car is doing well. I love it. And there's something to be said for buying a new car. I notice I keep it a lot tidier than I have my cars in the past. Never leave an empty can or water bottle in it. There's two boxes in the back, but that's work stuff and it's only there because our office is moving and I don't want my stuff to get tossed if they move while I'm out of town.

Folks, life is good. I'm finally making some headway in a lot of areas that I've been struggling on for years. When you think you might not get where you want to be, just keep going. It *can* happen.
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[User Picture]From: a_little_rain
2004-11-11 07:09 am (UTC)
I am really happy to hear all this, truly. I have some understanding of where you've been, even though I don't really know you, we do have some things in common ;)
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[User Picture]From: jaxia
2004-11-11 07:18 am (UTC)
Why might you miss the party?!
Sorry I didn't get to call you back - my hair took longer than I thought.
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2004-11-11 10:25 am (UTC)
Might be going out of town. I won't be able to confirm until tomorrow.

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From: _dahne_
2004-11-11 02:59 pm (UTC)
I'm not Captive anymore. I'm making a life. I'm working hard and doing what I can and being myself and that's all I can do. I can't roll over and make decisions based on fear of upsetting people anymore. This is not to say I'm just going to be a bitch, but I can't live in fear of other people's reactions for the rest of my life. It's no way to live and I'm glad it's over.

*cheers*

*applauds*

*hires a marching band*

Having dealt with the same sort of problem, all I can say is, good for you!
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From: yankeelass
2004-11-12 05:58 pm (UTC)

Self-Satisfied Nod

I told you this was a good thing!
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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2004-12-08 03:31 am (UTC)

Re: Self-Satisfied Nod

Sick. Getting better. Had all the clues of being food poisoning. At least it happened *after* the show.

I'll be back tomorrow. American Airlines took very good care of me and I was able to rest on the way home and have been in and out of bed all day.

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[User Picture]From: sichernde_seele
2004-12-08 03:31 am (UTC)

Re: Self-Satisfied Nod

P.S. You should be able to reply where I left the comment. :) It'll email me and answer. And you've got it locked on Friends Only, so only I would be able to see it.
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